So what am I doing here with Sameena and Scott? How does a life coach with a mediocre business and messy life who came from a catastrophically comedic corporate and personal past become the host of a social platform that's not a show but so much more? I made a declaration. The truth is, I unknowingly have been making declarations all of my life. I've made the constant, often-criticized and questioned commitment to be happy - sometimes at all cost and against all odds. With all of the personal development books and courses, classes and conversations, I decided to listen, apply and practice ONLY WHAT RESONATED FOR ME.
And funny enough, the action was to take no action.
I just quieted down and listened. I began to tell the difference of what I should do and what I wanted to do, knowing and understanding when something was honest and true for me.
There are signs and journey markers - big LOUD ones. And small, seemingly insignificant ones.
I finally took the time to listen to them all and gave the space and self-permission to let go of what didn't feel good to me, and that's what happened to bring me here.
I let go.
About a year and a handful of months ago from the time of this being written, I looked through Facebook for something to inspire me. It became a daily search of looking for anything that would enlighten me, give me the answers and get me out of the feelings of anxiousness and aloneness that I had been feeling for a very long time.
Being an entrepreneur was fun but the freedom that is the ultimate joy also was the base of my biggest pain. I was always looking for direction, and all that I saw and learned had me spinning in circles.
And in February 2018, I allowed myself to stop. Just stop.
I put away the books and stopped the searching.
Facebook and social media fell away. I wanted to be the most exciting person in my life, and watching everyone else 'doing things' for their lives and businesses only left me more disconnected and down on myself. I let it go.
I let go of everything outside of me that was being taught, told and trained to me.
And with that abandon, I was scared...but not really. Not for long. Because the biggest part of trust is letting go of the fear.
I just let go.
I crossed my arms over my chest and fell back into the Universe.
And from there, the alignment really pulled together. Things came together before my eyes.
My coaching practice morphed into a seminar and workshop production business where not only could I coach amazing people to bring their passion to life from the stage, but their passion raised others. My toes curled.
I began to see and feel abundance and ease and it felt good - all without me even trying.
Somehow, by me doing less, things came into focus. I unknowingly released the need and daily resistance for making my coaching practice a success, and in that release something else - easy, exciting and lucrative - filled the space. The efforting was next to nil. The trusting came through.
And yet "something more" was what I heard my heart say.
I began to listen to my own words of wisdom that would randomly pop into my mind - guidance such as 'stop forcing the results' and 'when unsure of the decision to make, don't make it... yet'.
I was self-permitting. I was giving myself time and space. I was trusting life's process.
And that is what led me here to Sameena and Scott.
My declaration to let go was to surrender.
To release the pushing, to release disappointment in myself, to release the doubt that I would be taken care of by the Power Greater Than Myself.
And in the space that was created, it filled with everything.
I believe in the power of the Universe. The Law of Attraction. Quantum Physics and all that is 'working behind the scenes'.
I believe in the goodness and passion and gifts of all people, and that we are all connected. We are all miracles. We all have our journeys through pain and suffering. We all go numb, and hide and disappear. We all have the ability to rise up. And I know that it is through our passions and connection that it happens.
I am passionate about connection.
I am passionate to know people's stories.
I am a lover of conversation and pure, authentic sharing of ourselves.
I am passionate to see others shine.